.Thursday, February 2, 2012 . 1:10 PM
Feels good to write again!I don't know what's happening but it seems that blogging is rather off the track today.. Hardly know of any friends who blog anymore! ;/ . It's perhaps Facebook which already allows people to update what's going on and of course an avenue to know what's happening to the ones you know..
Well that aside, i prefer using this website to write all the shit i have to and haha, rant or whatever it is man.
2 months have passed since my last entry and wow.. it's a month away before i enlist! Fortunate? Feeling neutral about it... but my friends are all going in.. one by one!! Haha it's gonna be a life changing experience i think. Sincerely hope for the best and lets enjoy it man.. Not all guys in this planet get to serve the nation! Besides getting my ass in the camp in march, results are coming out around that time too. Feeling nervous and scared la.. A hell lot of What Ifs i have in mind and i'm sure all 2011 graduates get what i'm saying! Trying to not think about it but well.. some things just get to you ;/ Anyway, it's been almost 2 months since i've got my driving license!! Being able to drive, with your kind of music blasting in the car is simply awesome. Thank God for being able to drive my dad's car.. I'm growing up!!!
Talking about the holidays.. hmm.. would say it is indeed a good break after that utterly depressing period of time in 2011. But i'm getting boring and sick soon.. and one of the reasons i feel is the lack of company hahaha.. But oh well, friend-less :X. Got myself a part-time job.. working for XTRON! Haha never thought that i would be working for them and trust me, i'm enjoying almost every moment of work thus far.. Fantastic productions company.. Allowed me to learn and see so many more things that i don't get to when i'm serving in audio. And with this, i'm really wondering if i should pursue this field.. besides the fact that nothing else interests me as much, music and audio is what i LOVE! Yeah a lot has been running through my mind.. And guess what.. i still have not gotten over the course in SP!! Dip in M-A-T!
So many things to say that i have no idea where to start.. so i shall just continue writing just what comes to my mind. Recently, i've been watching this Taiwanese Drama -真愛找麻煩- And i am lovng every single episode.. Can't really explain that feeling but it sort of touches me pretty deeply, that i'm hooked to it! It's about a man and a woman getting married initially to please an elder and like any other shows, love blossoms! Rather hilarious show which i feel that is worth watching if you have the time!! ( And i'm super in love with the lead actress!)
GO WATCH IT IF U HAVE THE TIME- so i can talk about it with someone who watches it as well -.-
Alright.. its getting really late that it's becoming early so i shall stop here. I will be back to write and write and write............... cause that's what clears my mind pretty quickly and effectively : )
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.Sunday, December 4, 2011 . 1:48 AM
Inevitable changes, nothing less.Feel so good to be able to blog again or in fact, write about what had and is happening in my life. I'm freaking 18 going 19 soon.. and knowing that you're growing up sucks.. real bad man. To say that time flies would be an understatement.. flying doesn't describe how fast time passes by.
Cannot believe that i've cleared 2 years of college education.. still remembered the victorious feeling i felt after receiving my O level results 2 years ago and sincerely feel rather accomplished . Not gonna take that back though.. because i finished something even greater - A freaking levels. Finished.. but well ? Hmm that'll take me 3 more months to find out. Nonetheless, a life changing experience for me i guess.. this 2 years is hell of a hectic, exciting, different journey and perhaps a milestone for me. The most exciting part will of course be that final 2-3 months of mad,stressful and tough mugging. Trust me, exams at this level is evil.. and it really changes you hah.
IJC- A typical college on the surface.. You meet all kinds of people in this place i would say. But i truly thank God for placing friends, teachers who would go the extra mile to be more than just mates and educators and this, made the final year possible for me to overcome. 1st year was manageable but the rigour in year 2 totally expanded my capacity and to be honest, i felt lost. Couldn't understand myself; my mind, my heart. Always thought that it wouldn't shake me that much but i was wrong.. proven pretty wrong in the final lap but somehow, somehow managed to withstand the stretch. Without these people, college would have been a drag and a wasted experience but thankfully it was not. So many lessons learnt through this 2 years of my life and hitherto, i'm still picking up useful learning points that could well make my life less challenging in the years to come. Reflections. Inflections.
We always tell ourselves " Nothing is Impossible ", "Never give up", " Persevere". But when do we seriously apply them? Are they mere cliches that we take for granted? Personally, 2011 made me deeply understand what this phrases are for man. Because when you go through something that makes you feel worse than shit, you'll then find out the true meaning behind this overused misused abused pick up lines to get yourself up and back on track.
Right now, i'm quite free.. particularly from stress! Still wondering if i should really take on a part time job before i embark on another 2 years of.. hell in NDU? Haha but there are things that i cannot wait to earn man.. besides money it's of course my driving license! Hope i pass my TP soon and start wasting dad's petrol then. That aside.. Christmas is coming!!
Favourite season of the year.. always man. The spirit and atmosphere of Christmas's just awesome be it whether i'm home, outside or in church. So gonna expect a wonderful end of december in just a few weeks yeah..
Anyway, i just finished watching " You're the apple of my eye". Fantastic movie man.. hilarious and touching as anyone would similarly feel so. Brings me back to days where school life was just the ' doing what you feel like doing ' kind of thing. Now that we're all kinda moving to a different phase.. it really makes me yearn for the harmless and innocent school life i've had.. hah. Alright shall just stop writing because i'm getting lazier and lazier. Let's end 2011 well and embrace 2012! : )
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.Friday, May 6, 2011 . 8:30 AM
It's been almost a year since i last entered this website. And the reason for doing so now is to vent all my frustrations and treat this as rather an avenue to make myself feel better. It has been 3 years since the passion got back and is ever burning in me. Tough trainings, tough losses, painful reality checks and so so so so so much just to achieve what i desire. Am i really that weak and incompetent? The results vis a vis hard work just seem to be at the 2 opposite ends. I have played the game for almost 10 years of my life, and up till today, nothing, nothing has exactly changed the way i desire it to be. Is it just so hard to prove that i can make it? Is it so impossible to show the people out there that i can actually be a player that is able to lift the team up from ground zero and scale greater heights, playing at the level that i want to play at? The opportunity was there on the 4th of may 2010. But we failed to grab it. I feel as though something so important in my life just vanish into nothing. I've let the team down, every single teammate, 11 of them. I have let everyone down. The teachers who so much supported us both mentally and physically. I can never forget the HtwoOs and bananas, the presence and advices from Mr Sim. The friends who encouraged and were there for every victory or setback we faced. We ran those freaking intervals, did those suicidal suicides, pushed one another so hard for each game and training, every single time we spent together on the court, track and gym. I've let these tough people down. I CANNOT CANNOT believe that it's over just like that. Why must these things happen to us? Do they deserve this? Every single time i tell myself that i have to give my best whenever i'm on that court. Every single time i tell myself that i'm representing my brothers who went through heaven and hell as one and i cannot cannot let these 11 people down. Every single time i tell myself that this is the moment for me to prove my worth and show we're no fucking pushovers. Yet it happened. Why must hope be present and become only an illusion when reality hits back. I'm tired of losing, losing the hard way.
Sitting outside the centre hearing the cheers from AC and VJ just made me felt like i am some bloody loser. It felt as though they just ripped off something worth so much. Getting back up every single time telling myself that i have so much more to prove just keeps me going. But is this ever gonna work out? Will all these things pay off someday? I try to not look at what i have achieved but what i should have achieved and make a difference in my dream, this passion which keeps me going in this life. So many questions and so little answers. This youth cup is the only chance i have left to give everything i have and try to get what i equally deserve. And i'm not doing this just for myself. Press on
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.Saturday, June 26, 2010 . 9:52 AM
Here. Again : )Yup. Here again after almost 3 months of not entering blogger.com. It's been quite some time
though. As usual, many things to say. It's like the last day of my holidays.. a month break.
Honestly i really enjoyed this break.. Really needed it. After all the crazy mugging and worries
for the summer test which plays a big role in deciding whether we will be promoted or not. Err
would not say i did well for this major exam. Kind of disappointed though .. with my performance and the already anticipated results. Guess i can only say that i've done all i could. Next half of the year left for redemption!
So what should i talk bout next ? Basketball!! Yea.. the season just ended for us not long ago. 2010 Milo cup. Once again we weren't strong enough to get into the 2nd round. Painful! That's another year passing by! But i'm taking it a little easier.. As it's really tougher. Didn't play well though. Really disappointed. I just have to keep training. After all, i admit that i'm really not as talented as others out there. Hard work shall be my bud! Gd job guys btw! Guess we have done all we could and although things didn't turn well, lets just learn from it and grow stronger. tougher. QX!
School's reopening like in a day's time and i just hope and pray that things will not be the same anymore. I'll make an extra effort to pay as much attention as i can in lectures and tutorials, complete my assignments and tutorials. DISCIPLINE's the key! Without it, What we dream for can never be achieved. Happens all the time! Off season training too~ It's gonna be damn challenging. Both Physically and Mentally. Guess that's where PERSEVERANCE steps in lol. Don't know how we're gonna do it . But we will do it. Relive what the 2009 batch had done!
Guess that's all i have to say and keep. Really enjoy blogging after a long period of time. Though it is kinda loooooooooong. All the best for those having exams when sch reopens, and those preparing for any major ones! You chose your path so live it to the fullest! Never give up and get back up whenever you fall. Cos nothing is impossible.
cheerrrrs
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.Thursday, April 1, 2010 . 8:37 AM
I've decided to update after like a thousand years!!
Lol .. It has been long . After the long post . Yup .. It's already april in like a blink of an eye once again. I'm currently in Innova JC ! AD ASTRA! hah yup this is gonna be my sch for this 2 years i guess . Yea .. many many things to say .. But i seriously have no idea where to start from .
Hmm.. suddenly feel like talking abt BASKETBALL!! Haha .. Yea congrats to me i've made it to the team. Phew after all the worries . I've proven more i guess. It's Adiv in like 5 days ? Oh man. Excited. First game against nanyang .. Wish me luck . I really want to play out the best of me every single game .. improve and improve and improve . New postion = new responsibilities , new things to learn , New exposure but old habits to kick . Not easy .. But i will do it . For the sake of the team! hehe . We must win guys! 1 2 3 INNOVA!
Ever since jc life started .. It has been hectic hectic and hectic .. hard getting used to it after graduating from ss .. Guess we all have the same problems .. but it's change you know .. only constant in life .HA. So too bad .. make the most out of it yea. Yup.. Made a couple of new friends in my new sch .. And of course nt to forget , the new and awesome classmates . 1032A! Haha .. sound like some high and patriotic idiot .. It has been more or less gd making these new friends man .. Really thank God for that . fabulous .
Many things have happened these few months .. so many . Pleasant .. unpleasant .. some really hard to accept and live with. Not gonna name and elaborate about those problems and stuff that happened.. AHH.
More than a month and a few days if i'm not wrong .. It's still hard to accept . Never was easy. The lessons we learn in life , things we see .. we must not take it for granted. Yes , at times i just couldn't take it.. Perhaps i'll just leave it to him .. And Focus on what i want to achieve . History repeats itself. Always. Ironically. But it's still the process that matters. Not the end result. Thanks for everything. Truely appreciate it.
Yup that's all i have to rant. lol .. Hope it'll make me feel better. : )
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.Saturday, January 16, 2010 . 9:50 AM
GRATEFUL , I AM !Yup , just feel like writing about the awesome one and only year,2009! Yea it has been a tough year for most of us .. Recession,exams,school,family and many more(i hope not) . For me , it is a year that really expanded my horizons and sort of changed me. My thinking,attitude, behavior and things like that. Many things happened throughout the year , pleasant or unpleasant . From the death of my grandma, the really important basketball matches and musical performances, the stressful school life , national exams, family life etc. Certain events that took place really got me thinking and wondering what was wrong. Thank God for his grace! Hah , when i was feeling hopeless and no one could really understands how i feel , he is there. And he's the reason why i did not give up.
Change is the only constant in life. Indeed , it is very true .. without change we will stay the same , probably forever . We have to move on , in order to see what's installed for us in the next chapter of our lives. True enough, no one is perfect and there must be something that we really regretted doing, or not doing. But life still have to go on. Try to make the most out of it , though sometimes it really sucks.
"Ask for broader shoulders and not lighter burdens." Something i learned which i feel is really true. As we grow up and move on in life , we really have to be stronger and stronger, mentally in a sense that we know how to cope with problems in life and not give up doing so as they become tougher to solve , and. - that's when we really grow .
Haha, i'm quite tired so forgive me if you don't understand what i'm writing: D. Yea phew, sincerely all the best to everyone in what you wanna do or have to do , haha and never forget Energizer's slogan!
That's all folks! have a great day!
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.Tuesday, January 12, 2010 . 12:06 PM
It's out . Finally .Yup , Finally got back my O level results . Heaved a sigh of relieve .Thank God ! Quite satisfied actually .. Got it exactly 2 months after my last paper . 11pts for L1R4 and 15 for R5 , raw score. It was great to be back to school again .. Seeing the teachers , stall vendors , ah hock , and all my friends! 11th of jan was the day which everyone was looking forward to , excited , nervous for or any adjective you can think of . After all the hard work and consistent revisions throughout 2009, everything you sweat or perspire for is just for this day. It also includes all the late nights at home , night study programmes or so.
2pm , Mdm Nathan started to talk about the JAE and other things and everyone was just too excited that i doubt anyone really did pay attention . Hah , And then there came Mr Yeo shocking us with his disappointments and then finally , Mdm Koh announcing the results!!
Yeah , once again , just wanna thank all the teachers from Nvss and my tutors, i mean seriously for all your teachings, guidance, encouragement throughout the hectic year for us. If not for you guys i won't be getting the results that i got on the day ... Mrs Ong , Mr Bala, Mr Latiff , Mr Long, Mr Chia, Mdm Tay, Mr Chew, Mdm Nathan, Pan lao shi, Huang lao shi, Ms Chong, Mrs poh , Mrs Kee Chen lao shi and many more! Danke
Congrats to those who did well and are happy with your results.. Those who did not , do not lose hope . There's always a way out!(I don't mean the green exit you always see) You've done all you could and do not fret ! Came such a long way, for 4/5 years in sec sch so.. Be proud of yourself!
Keep on going and believing in yourself, and that you still can achieve what you want because you really can! Stay STRONG !
That's all for today i guess. 2 months! .
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